Sometimes we’re too smart for our own good. Depressed people tend to be the most hyper-sensitive and observant people. We pick up energies, notice small facial expressions to over analyze or run information over and over to be dissected from every angle.
When I’m depressed, my mind is on hyperdrive. It doesn’t shut off. It has a lot of thoughts but none of them are usually conducive or helpful in any sort of way. I’m usually convinced that from the comfort of my bedroom that I can sit and figure out all of life’s problems by running over the same thoughts over and over. If I ruminate JUUUUST enough.
It. Never. Works.
I’m guilty of trying to solve a lot of problems this way, because I apparently respect my own intelligence SO MUCH that I believe I could sit in an isolation tank and work it out. I’d claim “Nothing works” after being given tools by my therapist, because I couldn’t possibly see them working. Tools that were too simple. CBT Mind mapping, exercises, EFT tapping, deep breathing, just going for a walk... but sometimes I wouldn’t actually TRY Them.
I’d think about doing these activities so much that I was convinced I actually had done them.
Because sometimes it’s just so hard to get moving, on anything. Even if it means just picking up a pen and paper. Or sitting down and “tapping it out” (see my video on Tapping). Once I did, it was like I gained some sort of outside wisdom from the small action.
Things I couldn’t learn had I just sat and intellectualized doing these activities.
When we’re depressed, we sometimes build up so much resistance to anything that could possibly help. We’re in such a dark state that we’re convinced that nothing works and it takes too much energy to try. The exchange doesn’t seem worth it. Any sort of optimism is shattered. It’s fear based.
It requires a leap of faith.
It requires that you break everything down for your brain in very small steps to convince yourself that whatever activity you’re working on will be worth the temporary discomfort or potential fear.
“I’ll give myself five minutes of this exercise.” Build from there.
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